Bday blessings

Think maybe good to change my bday to 25th May

Quite a few of friends thought is that day ;P

in this case, i got two greetigns (u know who u r n how u were coerced to send another sms on 26th haaaaa)

E special one: last yr n this yr u were with me ard my bday. M a boring person n u r a busy person. Thanks for the time spent. Sorry to waste your time.

E other special one Sleepy. There were one or two yrs u with me on my bday. N many presents wor! heeheee Thanks so much loving Sleepy

Two 'nieces' = who often get on my nerve but the yearly present is sth to look forward whahahahahahaa

the slice of cake - oops tat 'force' me to add one more candle to my bday cake lei

Someone missing forever in my life - no greeting fr u. Thanks alot cos tht reinforcement is really impt.

Crabs- heeheeeeeeee

26th,27th, 28th May 2007

i m ok

i will be ok

i will pull through

i can be better after the 3 days


They are just days

the ocean is vast

i wont think of it, they aint frigtening

every day will get by easier easier n easier

Nxt yr these days r jus normal days w/o pain, hatred and feel of betrayal

there was only 2 pax many yrs ago. Now with 3.

If the other two r happy, y m i left out?

i will be happy

I will pull through

y y y

cos i m JOVIAN KOH. Weathered alot of storm. this is nothing as worst before

相信就做的到

Not sleeping Sleep

This week on leave intermittentlly

Today suppose go office but since the dialogue is cancelled. I happily stay home abit more.

Tried to read on a book.

Funny, how come i feel so much inertia to read this book as compared the past two? it is about being successful.

Just before coming back to laptop, tried to grap a nap.

But the 30min was waste of time. Every time i was abt to fall asleep, sth jus make me jump. really, the heartbeat jus pull me back to conscious again. Angry

Jus hoping to zzz abit, abit is really satisfying, pls

Human likes to be a fool

I know wat lies today for me.

The press & TV media wont be coming and even if come does not mean they will cover it. And even print media is here, there is not TV media n hence i will be doomed.

A small scale exercise and they think that all the media will come and cover.

E story itself is not really captive.

E scale also.

But O.C thoght he is doing the Project of the Year in this country.

Fainting.

I will be e scapegoat already

Tire of that. Jus keep stirring among the fools

Its e SICK season

this mornign suppose to go on course.

I woke at 7am n force myself to bath with thunderstorm rite outside the window.

Then headache, stomachache n running nose.

No choice, went to clinic instead. Thought it will be fast cos it was only 8.30am lor. But i already in number 12th position!!!!

N ppl ard me are like a mirror to me. Same pattern.. all nose red red

pull myself n came back to office.

Staff also sick but he still come to work. So i got to since i m e 'boss' tat wat they hinting.

Head soooo heavy

Emails keep piling.

Ppl keep accusing us of not efficient.

Fuck them. come here and work n they know wat we are doing

So this is the woman who cried innocently

Being the culprit calling herself the victim.

So this bitch works in OCBC HQ, Audit

No no, i dun blame her. I pity her. Cannot find other man out there.

If she tink it is her trimph then i really need to observe a moment of silence for her

Let God continues to forgive u cos ppl sinned, not to say a bitch

Thank you for letting me have a new start. I dun like messy stuff

So need protection

Want to travel alone. But still lack the courage.

Sux, whenever i hear friends esp woman, going alone. I feel so useless!

Confess, i hardly a team person. Hate to rush and to accomodate irritating ppl. So going with others can be challenged. Especially my inspiration to travel is so ahoc. The Bangkok trip was a classic one. Left within 2 hours.说走就走

Ytd had dinner with friends. Quite happy. Relaxing Sat nite. One of the topics was travelling. But somehow i still 'hate' Australia. Haaaaaaa ..... cos my anger will grow again whenever i hear that country. Not the country fault ok! it is becos i will recall my 1st BF, who betrayed me while he studied there. N the betrayal leads to my subsequent abnormalities in love life.

Damn, sway away from this talk... hmm wat i should then write? Ok, ytd nite, i took stocktake on my face paper masks, scrub and make up. So many things i need to buy:
face paper masks - skinfood as so much cheaper
face scrub - should i stick to Shiseido's warm scrub???
compact powder - shiseido? lancome? chanel? fancl? headache
Body Scrub - coffee bean scrub from skinfood? but WP & PS said expensive
Blusher - suspect the blusher is contaminated that y my face got breakout! :P
Vitamin E Body Lotion - Existing 3/4 left bottle from Body Shop is not really effective. Nothing special effect.
Makeup Base - to continue with fancl? it is so much cheaper...
Eye Concealer - need a stronger one.. cos this one from lancome already not effective. My dark circle condition worsen. From 1 layer to 6 layers also cannot cover!

and so much more................

MONEY NO ENOUGH