Mango seem not so nice name... Man Go.. should i change my nick?
But i wan the fruitty fruitty mango
Told my GRL and my colleagues that today is saddest n most insulting moment when he asked for my full name. Really feel like dying.. no joke.
No courage, useless me.
So i gotta to carry on living. Wonder is my soul dead or my heart dead... suddenly i dun find myself crying today aft that moment of urge to die.
In fact now thinking of how to face ppl when eventually this spreads ard.. labelled as 'failure', 'lousy', 'indeed the man made e wise choice', 'rejected goods, 'ugly', 'sth wrong''????
How can i do to combat all these and have a little dignity back?
I admit my failure n being lousiest. However to live on, i still need some dignity to lift my legs up and step forward every morning.
Asked my colleagues to sponsor me a drinking session on the dayy of signing agreement.
The next day i shall start a 3 day vegetarian diet. Need to do sth to make myself atone for all the sins i have made throughout these 9 yrs. I know that no matter how much i wan to remorse, i can never return hubby his youth n other oppt n to clear my tortures given to him. But let me do sth can? 3 days to wipe out memories.
Ok, friends, i need some more courage to let me go back on driving training school. Has lost that faith that i can do it. Friends, pls help, give me more encouragement
I need to be reborn
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